Heartbrake

It's not because today is valentine day.
I just feel the blue.
I'm not sad or mad.
I just don't know what's my mood now.
I think maybe it's because I'm on period.
oh meeen, It's such a bullshit.
Just go straight to the topic:

HEARTBRAKE
Yeah....
I know you ever feel it.
Some one broke your heart and make your whole life was turning into the blue dimension.
I felt that way.
My heart was broke into the smallest pieces in this world (maybe like atom).

I was thinking what did he do?
Did he okay after he brake my heart?
Do I want a revenge?
I stupefied for a while

Heart break is the usually way to every human to be an strong human.
I don't care what he done
I don't give a damn to revenge
If I still care to him or think about revenge, all that things just make me go back into the heartbrake.
I'll stuck in the moment. I can't move on.
So I think the best way out to heartbrake people is go to a mirror which hanging on the wall.
Look at yourself!
Are you stupid enough to always thinking the one who hurt you?
No!
Are you good enough to make a revenge so you just around and not move on?
No!
You're a good people who can brake the heartbrake moment and go move on!

What are you waiting for?

Do you ever feel so envy to the one who have so much riches?
Do you ever feel so mad to the one who swagger what he/she has?
Do you ever feel so sad when your friend can buy a new modern car while you can't buy a TV?

I have a lot of friend. I didn't see them from what they have. I see them from what they do.
I won't get envy or jealous to my friend who have so much riches,
I won't mad to my friend who swagger about what he/she has,
I won't sad to my friend who can buy everything in this world.
It's not what they really have. It's all belonging to their parents.

I'll be so moved if there's the one who has poor life but he/she can stand and give some helps to everyone who need(although he/she need it too).
I'll be so mad if I can't do anything while there's someone who get so many success although he/she still young without use parent's riches.
I'll be stand and run to catch the one who get many rewards because the achievement.

I have some friends who has low self-esteem.
Come on.
Why do you feel that?
You're not being like this forever and they(people who make you feel so low) won't be on top forever.
Don't feel low, get up,men!
It's a life's wheel.
Now you're low, but in a few minutes,or hours,or days, or years, you can be on top if you really trying hard and keep your faith to God who will bless you in your way to get your success.
So, don't so low self-esteem!
Get up,men! Get up!
I see the bright future standing with you, right by your side!
I believe that, so do you.

1.2.13

February 1st is my birthday.

I just have a time to write down about this my birthday story.

I recalled some memories when I was sweet 17.

The first time I remembered about the greetings.

When checked up my phone to see how many people remember my birthday this year.

I didn't remember it clearly how many people gimme a birthday greetings when I was 17, but I know exactly for this year I get less greetings than before.

I know it sucks but it doesn't matter.

It's not important how people remember your life. The important is how good you're. You just giving your best. People's mind can forget but your good act will write down on their heart.

The second is Give Thanks.

I was to be honest to tell the truth that I checked my phone first then I was woke up my family to pray together. I've already pray before checked my phone but not with my family.

It's important for me to have more blessing especially from my parents.

They help God to guard my first step to walk when I was kid and now they are my spirit to stand and give my first step for something new in my life.

I remembered what I've done in 17 years old.

I remembered all my failure. About test, audition, friends, love, etc.

I know there's no good feeling to remember all of your failure, but I believe I'm standing here because I've break my failure. I've passed the test to do not fall into the deepest disappointed feel of failure. I keep moving on and go forward.

The most unforgettable thing is BLESSING.

I can't make a word to show how grateful I'm cause God's love.

God is my life.

There'll be no 18th birthday without Him.

There'll be no memories without Him.

There'll be no happiness without Him.

There'll be no me without Him.

God is my life and God is good all the time. So, I believe my life'll be good forever and after in God's love. Amen.

Glee 4: The Break Up

Today on Glee about The Break Up a relationship.
Rachel break up with Finn.
Santana break up with Brittany.
Kurt break up with Blaine.
All of them was have long direction relationship.
They gave up about being lonely and they turn.

All I get from this drama teach me about relationship.

I know it's hard to be on relationship with someone who doesn't here or near for you.
Although you always connected each other by social network or phone, you'll still feel lonely.
When you feel lonely, you'll start to do the new thing for the new life. I won't say it worst idea. You have to do that so you can jump from your loneliness. It helps you to keep happy and not always being sad all the time.
Sometimes the new thing is the way to break up with the old thing but there are so many thing which doesn't make you ended the relation. You can do some new activity and being busy to do not feel lonely.

I just wanna tell the reason to ended long direction ship isn't about someone changing or give up. It's about faith to believe each other. You just have to keep the faith. Keep the principal in relation. I know more load make you down, but faith will keep you stand up.

So for everyone who being in long direction ship, keep your faith and principal!
I believe if you do like what I'm saying, you'll no have reason to break up.

PS: I love this episode
Al though they feel disappointed each other, but it really touching episode.