How can I hate you? But How can I love you?

Mom
She is the only person that I told in this thread.
She's so stubborn.
I'm very sad.
She didn't know about my favourite things, colour, style.
And she didn't know about my heart and this feeling.

I need her as my mom! not as my life driver!
Everything that I do is for her! But she always look at my self in the dark!
Everything's so wrong!
She just angry and didn't give me a distinguished gentle advice, always angry, angry, and angry!

Now, It's really hurt me!
I wanna freedom! I want to be myself.
But I need brothers or sisters in my side. But I'm the only one.
I'm so sad in this way.
My mom never look as my side. She always look from her side!
She don't ask me 'why'! She drown on her mind which always hurt me!
I need your open eyes. Please.

Look at me, ask myself, take a pure care for myself(not for yours, mom), please understand me.

Kegalauanku

Galau
Sangat teramat galau

Hari ini aku sadar betapa banyak keputus asaan dalam hidup ku

Berawal dari masalah orang tua yg tidak kunjung usai
Pertengkaran yg tiada henti
Boro-boro ngarep dimanja, mereka aja banyak masalah

Lalu merambah ke rasa sakit yg tak tertahankan
Entah apa nama penyakit ini
Sudah dioperasi gigi tapi tak kunjung sembuh

Merambah ke kecelakaan masa lalu yg berbuah 'kebudekan' pada telinga kiri
Hal ini menyebabkan beberapa kejadian salah denger yg berbuah pada pertengkaran
Jujur! aku juga ingin kembali ke masa lalu biar tidak budek

Lalu memuncak pada kesendirian dalam hidup
Bukan minta dapet pacar
Tapi berilah aku saudara kandung, paling tidak adopsi
Karena sesedihnya semua kegalauan ku, inilah yg paling membuat ku sedih
Menjadi anak tunggal

Namun aku percaya
Kau selalu berserta ku
Maka kupanjatkan syukur tiada henti kepada Engkau YME
Karena Engkau adalah hidupku

My Lovely School, 67 SHS Jakarta

General Profile

SMA Negeri 67 Jakarta is located on jalan Squadron Halim Perdanakusuma, East Jakarta. It is built on the area of 9.487 square metres, consists of two floors. The area of its building is 4.579 square metres. SMA Negeri 67 Jakarta has 27 classes which are divided into three level of education classes. The first year students consists of 9 classes. The second year students makes up of 4 classes of science students and 5 classes of social students, and the third year students consists of 4 classes of science students and 5 classes of social students. The capacity of each class is 40 students. Now, SMA N 67 Jakarta is led by Drs. H. Syafruddin. He is assisted by 4 vices of the headmasters. The class management is conducted by 77 teachers, 22 administration staffs and 6 cleaning services.

History of SMAN 67

SMA N 67 was built in 1981. It consisted of 7 classes then. In 1983 it was increased to 21 classes and it has had 27 classes since 1989. To improve the faith and the devotion to the Almighty Supreme God, it was built a little Mosque which has the size of its is 17x17 squaremetres in 1995. The SMA N 67 ‘s building had been renovated totally in year 2002. At that time, the learning-teaching activities were held in 4 different places such as in SD Angkasa V, SD Angkasa VII., SD Angkasa X, and SD Angkasa XII. The learning-teaching activities have been held in a new building, after being renovated since year 2004.

Vision & Mission

The Vision :
To create SMA N 67 Jakarta as a school which has an abilility to compete with the other schools based on the advanced science and technology as well as the faith and the devotion and to become the Idol among the society.

The Mission :

• To strive and improve the professional human resources who have the faith and the devotion to the one Supreme God.
  
• To make all members of SMA N 67 Jakarta more discipline, meddle with the others, being able to participate, dynamic and prosperous.
  
• To keep SMA N 67 Jakarta clean, comfort , peaceful and beautiful.

The Motto :
Today is better than yesterday and tomorrow is better than today

Without word - Park Shin Yen (real)

ha ji mal gor gu re so
mo run chog he bo ril gol
an bo i nun got cho rom
bol su op nun got cho rom nol
ha ye
bo ji mar gor gu ret na bwa
do mang chir gor gu re so
mot du run chog gu rol gol
dut ji do mot ha nun chog
dur ur su op nun got cho rom
ha ye
ne sa rang dut ji ha nul gol

mal do op shi sa rang ul al ge ha go
mal do op shi sa rang ul ne ge ju go
sum gyor ha na jo cha nor dam ge he no go
i ro ge do mang ga ni ka

mal do op shi sa rang i na rul to na
mal do op shi sa rang i na rul bo ryo
mu sun mar ul hal ji da mun hi bi
hon ja so no lan go ga ta

mal do op shi wa so
we i rok e a pun ji
we ja ku man a pun ji
nol bol su op da nun go
ne ga op da nun go mal go
mo du
ye jon gwa tok ga tun gon de

mal do op shi sa rang ul al ge ha go
mal do op shi sa rang ul ne ge ju go
sum gyor ha na jo cha nor dam ge he no go
i ro ge do mang ga ni ka

mal do op shi sa rang i na rul to na
mal do op shi sa rang i na rul bo ryo
mu sun mar ul hal ji da mun hi bi
hon ja so no lan go ga ta


mal do op shi nun mur i hu lo ne ryo
mal do op shi ga sum i mu no jo ga
mal do op nun sa rang ul gi da ri go
mal do op nun sa rang ul ha pa ha go
nok shi na ga bo ryo ba bo ga dwe bo ryo
ha nul man bo go hu ni ka

mal do op shi i byol i na rul cha ja
mal do op shi hi byol i ne ge wa so
jun bi do mot ha go no/l bo ne ya ha nun
ne mam i no lan got ga ta

mal do op shi wa so
mal do op shi wat da ga
mal do op shi to na nun
ji na gan yol byong cho rom
jam shi a pu myon dwe na bwa
ja ku
hyung to man nam ge dwe ni ka

Without word - Park Shin Ye (English Translate)

I shouldn't have done that
I shouldn't ignored it
Like something I couldn't see
Like something I can't see

I shouldn't have ever looked at you
I should've ran away
I should've acted like I didn't hear it
Like something I couldn't hear
I shouldn't listened to my heart

You showed me love without word
you gave your love without word
You made me hold my breath, waiting for you
but you ran away like this
without a word love leaves me
without a word love throws me away
What should I say next
my only closed lips were surprised
coming without word

why does it hurt so much
why does it keep hurting
expect for the fact that you aren't here
though everything is the same

You showed me love without word
you gave your love without word
You made me hold my breath, waiting for you
but you ran away like this
without a word love leaves me
without a word love throws me away
What should I say next
my only closed lips were surprised
without word tears fall
without word my heart breaks

Without a word I wait for you
without a word love hurts me
I zone out, I became a fool
Because I cry as look up at the sky
without a word goodbyes find me
without a word goodbyes come to me
I couldn't even prepare to send you away
I think my heart was surprised
without a word it came

Without a word it went
Without a word it left
like the fever before
I'll just hurt you for a while
Since only scars will be left at the end