knockin' on heaven's door.

Lyric:

Mama, take this badge off of me
I can't use it anymore.
It's gettin' dark, too dark for me to see
I feel like I'm knockin' on heaven's door.

Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door

Mama, put my guns in the ground
I can't shoot them anymore.
That long black cloud is comin' down
I feel like I'm knockin' on heaven's door.

Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door

Sometimes I'm drowning in this song. It's just like what I'm feeling. My mom doesn't take the badge and doesn't put my gun. Sometimes I feel something was taken or put from me(not by my mom). But I don't know what was that thing. My heart feel so empty  (I don't talk about love). When I had to feel sad, I was okay. When I had to feel happy, I was in a normal mood. It's like I lost all of that feeling. I just can't feel what's this condition? am I happy? no. am I sad? no. am I just okay? no. there's something was taken, maybe my feeling.
People sometimes just like me. They stuck on their routine and lost. The lose their feeling and turn to be zombie. Take rational! revive your spirit! take some fresh air and break the routine rules!